How a Go-Pro Made Me Re-Evaluate My Life Choices.

I bought a Go-Pro. Today I thought it was a great idea to put the chest harness on my five-year-old. I thought it would see the world from my children’s perspective.

Boy, did I.

What I saw made me sad. It made me so annoyed with myself. I saw watching the footage from my boys level. My face looked annoyed, even though I was not mainly. I sounded mad, and I have no idea why. I had a scowl on my face, and my posture was hunched, which for a retired ballet dancer was quite shocking. I looked at myself through the eyes of my children, and I didn’t like what I saw.

All night it bothered me. How did this happen? I’d been through a lot personally in the last few years, but I didn’t realise how badly it had affected me. I thought that I was portraying myself as I always had, that the pain I had felt internally wasn’t noticeable.

I looked like shit! My backyard looked like a rubbish tip, and the house was a mess. I had no idea how or when it had happened.

So, where to now?

Distractions had to go first. Bye Facebook! I deleted all the non-essential apps on my phone and iPad. I looked at myself and my house critically and made notes of what needed doing. I felt stressed, and like I never had time to get everything done. But what was I doing with my time? I had absolutely no idea.

  1. Realising I had a massive problem — the most challenging step of all. I had to take a good, confronting and critical look at where I was going so wrong. I was dressing terribly because I felt terrible, which made me look terrible, making me feel more awful. Vicious cycle. The same was true for my home.

That’s it!

Hopefully, I am not the only self-admitting slob who needs to kick themself in the butt sometimes.

Comment below. What are your best motivational tips for stay at home Mums who sometimes drop the ball?



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